Thank you – Final Massage Marathon Post

THANK YOU!!!

I want to say thank you. 

I want to say thank you to the massage therapists at The Well-Being Center for Health, not only for their expertise as massage, cranial-sacral, Reiki and energy work practitioners, but the heart and soul they put into their work and the extra care they extended during this massage odyssey.

I want to say thank you to the higher spiritual energies that both engineered and oversaw the process of change and awakening supported by this massage odyssey.  I thank them for protection and guidance.  I thank them for nudging me to make the space in my life necessary to experience the Divine as tangible, engaged, interested and reliable.  I thank these Divine forces for reminding me that I am both unique and part of a collective process of change transforming individuals (personal & spiritual growth), societies (social upheaval), and - although the topic has not yet been broached in this blog - the planet (natural disasters).  In reminding me of my place in the whole, they have relieved some of my loneliness.

Though intellectually I have been aware of the larger presence of these energies of change - including their role in my life - at the end of this massage marathon, the emotional reality of such close and transformative interaction with the Divine is hitting home.  It is not an exaggeration to say that I am awestruck.  From a knowing that seems to reside deep within each of my cells, I grasp the magnificence of the situation. 

Mystical reality – the presence, action and voices of angels, of plants and nature, of God and of demons – as well as the natural multiplicity of self – has become, for me, a daily experience.  Yet, in the wake of Massage #20 – it is as if I am climbing out of a hiding place after forgetting that I was in fact hiding and that I hid out of fear, hatred, rage and abandonment by self and the loving Divine. 

The darkness from which I emerged, was once, in my eyes, a well-lit room.  It is only now, after deep and often painful excavation of my energy body, that I am able to reflect on what I could not before see.  Mine is the feeling of returning home, after a decade or more of war, to a sunny picnic in the backyard with loved ones, the sweetness of the gathering heightened by the battle preceding it. 

I am left to wonder: is this what is meant by reconciliation with the Divine?  Is this the coming home to the God, an additional layer of it anyhow?  Is this the new understanding that allows for forgiveness of self and of the Divine for the way things have been including violence, betrayal, injustice, depression, fear, harshness, isolation, and hopelessness.  Is there in this collective transformation  a forgiveness complete enough to turn our attention from wounds, now healed, toward the potential we’ve always sensed and can now realize? I suspect that if we allow it, it will be true.

In this moment I am thunderstruck by the fact that there are Divine forces working to make themselves seen and heard by us!  I am astonished that this Divine consciousness has our best interest at heart and more than this, asks us to risk everything for the fulfillment of a new vision of life.  I am unnerved that in return for accepting this risk they become active, tangible and supportive partners in the process of life, including awakening and stepping beyond the boundaries of reality as we’ve known it.

(I have noticed that some in spiritual circles seem to get used to unusual things happening and become nonchalant.  Not me.  Not today.  Today, I am reverent.  Today, the grandeur of the Divine in our world is not lost on me!). 

This re-realization of the larger process of change of which I am a part is also frightening!  If I admit that I - and humanity - are but microcosmic beings in a roaring ocean of change…well, then, I am left with two choices - ride the waves or be overtaken by them.  I thank these Divine forces, the therapists at the Well-Being Center for Health, and everyone who joined me on this blogging journey for helping me to do more of the former than the latter! Lastly, I thank myself for showing up and going through it.